Real Problem

Why are people training me to think I'm not right, like my dad's sisters and my cousin?  They go about mumbling to themselves because of him.  I didn't have to, so I'm not gonna do it.  They are treating me like them.  I wonder if it's the m..  I don't know why people are like that??  I don't even know that much @ it.  My cousin just is a wild girl, which is something I wanted to be known as..  I am being treated like I'm always in trouble and stuff like my cousins or something.  I wasn't befo-ore..  You know what?  Jut what?  That N word thing?  You probably won't be getting away with this because I know people sniff out others's consciences and figure out what they'd do in your shoes until they are done.  It just sorta happens.  I won't be mean @ it, but it's totally ruining the world and my life.  I know you don't care @ my life because I'm 1/2 Chinese.